I really am not strong anymore. My heart collapsed at the mention of your name. I miss you! My heart almost dropped out when I almost saw you just now,I'm awaken by you. Now I can't sleep. I rindu you gila babi bby. And I am so fucking ANNOYED. CHIBAI AH. BYE.
Monday, November 9, 2009
Goodbye. Wait for my return in idk how many wks :D Miss me.
You're still the curve on my smile. Thinking of you makes me smile. You're my sunshine. I miss you so very much yet not talking to you isn't making me so sad anymore. I know you're doing great. I know you're not sick. I know you're no longer crying. By this time,you're probably watching your tv till 11.45. And then you're probably on the computer now,checking your fb etc. I'm amazed at how you still make me laugh without talking to me. Suddenly,my mood's dampen. The more I think of you,the more I'm missing you. Bby,talk to me. You're online. Talk to me. Acknowledge me. Every time I log on fb/msn,you're the first I look for. Goodbye.
iwillbewaitingforyourcalleverynight.
Friday, November 6, 2009
I shall just admit that I miss Phoon Kokwei badly. So so badly. Everyone knows that,even that baboon at the Zoo. I've been acting strong,yes I have. But he's been filling up my mind everyday,every night, every hour,every minute, every second. Bby,you've got me thinking of you for every breath that I take. You've taken over my soul. How powerful. I think I've fallen deeply in love with you,can't let you go. You once said that you'll take care of me,won't hurt me. I keep those words deep down in my heart. I know you'll come back because you have always say that you feel like the luckiest guy to have me because I'm one of a kind and too good. You wanted me to wait & here I am waiting. You mean so much. It's hard to let go. I'm a weak lover.
Cramps cramps cramps. My tummy hurts bad. Feels like someone's punching and squeezing it. Oh my,today's bio. Guess what? I' m unprepared. Bio's never my cup of tea. I'd probably get a 9. Again & again. No surprise. My tummy's screaming,"Feed me mummy,feed me!!" . I starved the whole day yesterday. Nowadays there's just no appetite. Busy distracting myself away from him. YAY,not a success. He's in mind like always! Get out for now. I need to store some biology notes things inside this pea-sized brain of mine but you're taking up all the space. Tsk. Gdbye-got to shower/tv/revise/ TRY HARD NOT TO FAIL :D
Everything is just different without you. It's like a whole part of me is no longer there. I'm like a building with no structure. Boneless. This young heart of mine is drying up. You aint 'watering' it no more. Bloodless. I was so thrilled listing all the things we have to do when exams are finally over. I made you my first prioty after exams. Seems like it's not happening huh?? How I wish things that happened to you didn't happen. And I'd still be having my late night calls. What am I to do after exams now? Everyday seems cloudy. The sunshine's gone. Feel like breaking down everyday. Are we still us? Or it's back to just you and me? Got to keep the post balanced. Bright-Grey. Wish you're here with me. Bby I'm waiting even if takes a lifetime. I swear I'm f***ing in love with you. Goodnight now.
